answer his call or call him. i had enough!!! yes i know it was my fault and im not saying that im right here but come on! at least let me know you are okie will give a girl a break from worrying so much. it just goes to show that he is not understanding enough and immature. I have said alot of sorrys. i know a "sorry" wont cover up the fact that i lied about it. i have faced it. i faced it really bad with this guilt feeling over it but come on! this is like so way out of line. to be honest, last night after crying so much while my family were already asleep in the next room. i waited for him to call from 10pm to 12:30midnight. i waited for a call that will never come. i hate him! i want so much to just end it. to me at that moment, the word "break up" seems to be such a good idea. then i stop my self. i cnt deal this in such a immature way like what he doing now. that's why i have decided that i will keep myself so busy that way i wnt think of him. its kinda hard but i must do this. i also decided that when my sibilings goes off to study somewhere i wnt stay here either. i would want to study in the philippines or somewhere but not here. thats what i have told my parents this morning. they told me that maybe im saying this because of the "war that we seem to be having right now but i said no. i love him but it seems that its not strong enough for the both of us like take what is happening now. it was a big matter but it can be settle in such a better way not like this. ya we do fight and sometimes what we fight about to some can be really silly but when i think back at all this it goes to show how different we really are towards each other. and that getting use to the difference we have is just such a roller coster for the both of us. so far, we are i think getting used with each other. i cnt help but wonder if he is worth all this in my part. am i investing in the right product?or im risking so much of my capital that i might end up become bankrupt.
have you guys heard that new song by Kelly Clarkson?
-Never Again-
I hope the ring you gave to her
Turns her finger green
I hope when you’re in bed with her
you think of me
I would never wish bad things
But I don’t wish you well
Could you tell
By the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
Cause I knew what you’d say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try to make it all okay
Does it hurtTo know ill never be there
bet it sucks to see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
exactly what you would do
Don’t sayYou simply lost your way
She may believe you
But I never will
Never again
Never again
Never again
Never again
If she really knows the truth
She deserves you
A trophy wife
Oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
And he’s through with you
And he’ll be through with you
You’ll die together but alone
You wrote me in a letter
You couldn’t say it right to my face
Give me that Sunday school answer
Repent your self away
Does it hurtTo know ill never be there
bet it sucks to see my face everywhere
It was youWho chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
exactly what you would do
Don’t sayYou simply lost your way
they may believe you
But I never will
Never again
Never again
Never again
Never again
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to younever
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to younever
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!
Does it hurtTo know ill never be there
Bet it sucks to see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
exactly what you would do
Don’t sayYou simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I never will
I Never Will
I never will
Never again
Never again
Never again
Never again
i just love this song. its not because of the hurt i feel now but because it makes you feel that i shouldnt be down over something but i should stand up. i dnt want to be a slave of my own feeling but i want to be the leader of it. i cnt let my feelings always get the better control over me. i need to use my mind more. that way i wont end up beinging bankrupt but instead a millionaire for myself and with him i hope...
