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have you heard the song from the movie "walk to remember - someday we'll know"? i cant seem to stop listening to the song...its funny becuz as the song goes i feel its for me....i know he is very happy and he really has found the girl that he has been looking for such a long time but why is it i feel it snot really over yet...that we will still meet........maybe one their wedding day....i dont know...its been almost two years...but i still think of him when to him i think i am nothing but a bad memory......honestly, it saddnes me just thinking about it...taht i wish i had a a memory lost...for that part of a memory with him becuz...its not easy..it was never easy......i have let him go...and i am really happy for him but......why does it still hurts?....whenever a memory of yesterday comes in mind all i want is to just "get busy" anything i will do just i wnt fully remember it......its silly i know but somehow its working...in somedays.......i want to send him a msg but i just cant.....who am i? i was the past and she is the future....painful it may sounds but i have to accept it...i am accepting it.....i get my strenght to the people that is around me always most esciaply my God and my family....remembering those painful times.......where i almost break down...no one knew how i felt.....i almost went crazy.........that i wanted to end my own life......after knowing that i have lost everything.......i guess no one will understand that unless they were in my shoes....i learned my lesson....a very painful lesson.......i wnt say its finally over becuz it was the deepest cut i have ever felt....but i know im healing....my prayers are answered...someday i wish it will over...this..feeling i have....i know i have no right to even think or miss him anymore...but he will always be my soulmate...my true love......my first love.....and if only you could only hear me my heart now...i just want to say....i miss you so much more than you ever know......................


Listen @ 2:48 AM



it just sucks when u feel that everything you do no one seems to notice....i do what i like to do because its what i like and it makes me happy why cant anyone see it...they judge me like as if they are so right about everything....it sucks...i hate it... i want to scream so much....but i wonder if i do...would anyone notice me?.........

yesterday, we watch Transformers 2. it was so great..the song was done my all time favourite band Linkin Park. they are so cool! anyways, i cant stop listening to the song...its just so empowering to me...i love it! i hope someday i can sing it with a guitar in my hands or with someone who plays for me while i sing..


Listen @ 12:36 PM



i love this video was made and im gonna show this in my page. i hope you will enjoy it as much i did plus i love this song too. makes me wish i could sing this to someone too...hmmmm......

Listen @ 2:23 PM




many times i have missed this movie and thanks to Star Movies i was able to see this much awaited movie " 27 dresses"

Plot


Jane Nichols (Katherine Heigl) has been a bridesmaid for 27 weddings. One night when she is attending two weddings almost simultaneously, she meets Kevin Doyle (James Marsden), who helps her home but repulses her with his cynical views of marriage and finds the planner she left behind in the taxi they shared.

Meanwhile, Jane's younger sister Tess (Malin Akerman) comes home to visit for a couple of weeks and falls in love with Jane's boss George (Edward Burns). Tess pretends to like the same things George does so that she can get him to like her; despite loving George herself, Jane does not reveal the truth and the courtship progresses rapidly. Soon the new couple announce that they intend to marry in only three weeks. Jane's and Tess's father gives Tess their mother's wedding dress to wear, even though Jane had always wanted to wear it to her own wedding. The reporter who agrees to cover their wedding for the society page turns out to be Kevin, who writes wedding announcements under a pseudonym: Malcolm Doyle. The reason he didn't return Jane's planner, after finding it, was so he could gather material for a piece on the "perennial bridesmaid" and hopefully be promoted to writing investigative pieces about "real" news.

Jane is unaware of Kevin's intentions and, when he asks to interview her for his column on Tess, gets her to try on all 27 bridesmaids dresses in her closet. He takes pictures of her in all of them and sends the completed article to his boss. As they get to know each other because of Tess's wedding, Kevin begins to think that Jane is not as one-dimensional as he thought, and asks his editor to hold his article so he can "fix" it.

Jane becomes increasingly uncomfortable with the fact that Tess still hasn't been honest with George. She almost tells George the truth about her sister when Tess is away and Jane is helping him choose dinner for the reception. Kevin walks in on the meal and realizes that Jane is in love with George and can't understand how she can go on planning her sister's wedding. Kevin and Jane drive to Rhinebeck to pick up linens for the wedding, they get stuck in a rain storm and eventually so does their car. After they seek shelter at a bar, they get drunk and sing "Bennie and the Jets". After finishing their song, they share their first kiss. They have sex in Jane's car.

The next day, Kevin's article is published along with all the pictures of Jane in her dresses, leaving her hurt and embarrassed. Upon getting back to the city, she must also deal with an enraged Tess whom Kevin had portrayed (somewhat correctly) as a bridezilla. To save face, Tess writes a script of what she wants Jane to say along with the slide-show to be shown at the rehearsal dinner. Jane is horrified when she finds out that Tess had their mother's wedding dress cut up to make it look more fashionable. At the rehearsal dinner, Jane says what Tess wants but fills the slide-show with pictures depicting the real Tess, and George finally learns that Tess isn't who he thought she was. The wedding is called off and Jane sees Kevin as she leaves the dinner. He gives her a BlackBerry to replace her Filofax, telling Jane that he was happy she finally stood up for herself and, though she is mad at him about the article, he just wanted to come to the dinner and be there for her.

Later at work, George tells Jane that he appreciates her because she never says no. Remembering that Kevin once said the same thing as a criticism, Jane quits and admits she only stayed at the job because she was in love with George. She discovers after an experimental kiss that she no longer loves him and decides to meet Kevin. She announces in front of the entire crowd at a wedding that he is covering that she is in love with him. Kevin then kisses Jane.

One year later, Jane puts on her 28th dress — her wedding dress and marries Kevin. George and Tess meet again since breaking up, and Tess reintroduces herself, being completely honest this time. Tess and Casey (Judy Greer), Jane's best friend, are her maids of honor. All 27 brides Jane has been a bridesmaid for are bridesmaids for her, each wearing the dress Jane had worn in their weddings.


** As i watch this movie i cant help but feel the character because in some way it is happening in my life as well even though i don't have any 27 dresses ( i only have 5 dresses ever since i hit my teen years) i cant help but feel attracted to dresses just like the character and hoping that some day when its my day they will also come to my day wearing the dresses they have let us wear that time. I cried towards the end of the movie.....it was simply beautiful......but somehow i know it only happens in movies or even the books that i have read before because in real life its much more different and its not as simple as that..i wish it would be but the truth is its not. Life is not a fairytale but hard reality. i grew up believing in the impossible though i still do but most of the time i know now better.....i wish i can be like the character in the movie..in my heart i know someday will be my day....someday...

Listen @ 9:10 PM



Have you ever been wonder if you are good in bed or not? what if your partner fell asleep while you guys are still having sex, what would you feel? i was watching "SEX AND THE CITY" last night and it left me wondering was i ever good? i mean do i make my man be fully awake? i know its kinda weird asking this actually since mine experience doesn't count. i mean i only slept with one guy who i thought that time was the one but he just turn out to be a totally jerk. Honestly, it sucks to lose my first time with a guy who never saw my worth instead i was nothing but just a girl to him. then it dawn to me. how much i don't really understand men at all. i thought i did but i guess i was wrong. its never easy to understand the opposite sex indeed. last night too i was thinking if i were really a boy would i do the same thing that he did to me?..i told my brother that i was much more better guy than him. then he told me what makes you so sure that you will be. then i think. he is right how do i know i will be a much better guy than him. i was just saying it because i am a girl and seeing how guys treat their love ones and judging from my past experiences that's why i said i would be a much better guy than him. i just wish guys see the things that they really do, their actions, their words. i mean why do they keep hurting the ones that really care for them just to try another thing or person. like what my dad said to my brother "boys likes try new "dishes" and they never really know how to cherish the one person that is worth keeping till it is lost" oh gosh! i went way out of my topic here. anyways, right now I'm seeing three guys at the same time. from different fields of work. i just feel bad because compare to them I'm still a student. They are all so sweet. its even funny because they keep telling me that they would hurt me like what my ex did to me...to be honest, i was not buying all their crap! gosh! they really think i will fall for it AGAIN. NO WAY! i wouldn't be fooled again. once was enough and it still hurts. like them all really. but i know whats on their minds and that is sex. i know those touches, kisses will lead into that..but no i will not allow it. it will be hard since they are so handsome and their bodies are so hot! but i must resist the temptation. if they are really serious with me they will wait and they will married me. as simple as that. well, its not really that simple but hey you get what i mean right? i just don't want to regret it again...
just to answer my question earlier on i think I'm really good in bed judging from that time i always make him asking for more! haha well, that's what i think..i wanted to ask him but i think he is doing it with his gf now so maybe I'm not good or i am anyways who cares. i just want to spent my orgasms with someone really worth giving too.

i rest my case till we meet again. mwahh!
Listen @ 12:10 PM



there is one person in my life now who has been so dear to me. i met he long ago and till now we are still friends. our feelings have grown since then but the sad part is that he is far away. he is working while im still studying. he says he is not worth of me because looking at my life compare to his, he says he cant provide me with what i am having right now. then i wonder...its like i have heard someone said that to me before....yea..now i remember....then i wonder why would they say that?...is my life that high that its seem impossible to reach??? i honestly dont think so...God is simple good to my family and i but we too share some downs and even harder times...i wonder do they see that?...people see what they want others to be seen but the real truth is that our lives is not greater than what they have now. life is never easy so many hurts..saddness...fights....but it can also be a weird and wonderful expernice. its been this long everyone has moved on even he has with his true love....i thought he was for me but......maybe i was wrong along i mean i grew up dreaming of that one perfect person the right guy that it never cross my mind that what i read and what i watch does not exist but meer fraction to believe at. i was the fool in the end. sadly. i gave my best and all to the one i thought felt the same way or even thought of me as the one but i was just fooling myself in the end. it hurts. honestly, its not easy to forget but thanks to Pooh ( Ian) im getting there. i know i will never delet him completely because afterall he was part of my life too even though he was the one who broke it. i want to be so mean so bitch like do some really nasty stuff to him and the girl but i just cant. maybe i was just so kind or is that i care for his happiness more than mine that i just let him go....

thats all i can do...even though in my heart it seems wrong or is it?....all i want for him is to be happy and i know he has already found what he has been looking for..his real true love and only love...I'm happy for him but somehow tears just fall whenever i think of that but i know i have to be strong. Pooh, is really sweet. we actually decided to be in a unoffical relationship meaning no strings attch. if he finds someone else over there its okie with me and if i find someone here its okie for him too. HOnestly, i dont really know what else i can say about it. it seems wrong but it seems safe. i think. but lately, i noticed that i miss him alot compare to before and same goes to him. we actually talk about it. i told him its really childish this whole idea but when he said that till he has not talk and meet with my family in person it will never be true. but being myself, i debit with him till he said im really something and we just laugh. it was weird. i know sometimes i can be so bossy or pushy and even demanding but he is can handle me well enough. i guess thats what you get for being with a guy who is older and mature enough than me. i was really blessed. i felt God lend me to him let me grow up as well as forget. i learn so much from him. I really like him but i will wait for us if we are really might to be thats what he tell me too. he understand what i am going through now. He was with me during those dark moments of my life and he still is. He was actually the first one who said to me "he never really saw your worth. you are not the one to blame. you were true through out it all" "its better to have loved then to have never love at all" and "take it all as a lesson" i even remember those times when i cried to him so much and used him as mu punching bag. he didnt say anything. he just said just let it all out if it makes you happy and i did. i fight, punch, kick and even scolded him just for the sake of all mankind....despite all of that he stood by me when i needed someone so much...when i needed someone to just cry no reason but just cry becuase it hurts so much.....


i will forget it all and even those lies...i will not look back anymore...i was broken but still i have to say its alright, its ok im so much better without you i'm stronger now..


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltnhk6O3-Zc ---> its alright, its ok my new song ^_^
Listen @ 8:10 PM