i just hate the fact that its happening again.i hate the fact that i see my mother crying while my dad looking so worry as to where to get the money for my sibilings who are studying now and looking for a way to pay for mine school fee next sem. I HATE IT!!!! i feel so helpless as everytime we pray or see them...i feel so useless..to be honest, i really wan to scream or just not stay at home. i want to get out of here! i hav no one to talk with..all i can do is write here but sometimes the internet isnt working. i wish i could talk with someone but everyone is so busy even my own bf...i dnt noe if he is my bf thu cz i dnt see him even hear him i guess he is that busy or maybe he has found someone..i dnt noe..i dnt care anymore..i dnt hate him if he does it cz i noe one day he will go too..my bestfren once told me do i love him tts way its hard to break up with him or im just scared? i told him i love him very much but yet im scared too cz he is a guy and from my past life no matter how gud a guy is or i am to him he will break my heart no matter what...i think im curse tts y. so funny i think im reading too much again. he still hasnt said sorry to me tts one thing.im disappointed.maybe we are having cool off after all. i miss him. where are you when i need you most???...
i wish iam dead nalang that way i wnt see or even feel all this. i wanted to bring a smile to them and i want to be with him till im all old. yes tts how much i love him that i even want to be with him till the day i die. in short forever love but wat abt him? does he see that? or im just a ger he will get tried of someday. Many people see that we wont last at all then are even some who prays that we wnt end up together. but like in that song by Akon. i dont matter becz i got u...lorenz, do i still got u?...
