yes my long awaited school break has finally here.it started gud cz i went back to the Philippines with my whole family. i had a totally blast cz i meant my cousins who one of them already has a child twin actually. they were so cute but very naughty. i was a "mommy" for a day cz i had to look after them while my folks n siblings went searching for a room for rv n joy who are left in the Pinas to study. i miss them already. its really weird not having them arnd the hse like this. ya Lorenz is here but its just different.anyway, he is just...i just dnt noe anymore. i get so sick and tried sometimes abt wat it but i guess its just part of the knowing him more. just now we had a Lord's day at my plc and he was so ahhhh!!noe word to say it. he was so such a stone towards me lyk as if i was a wall!HUwat?! i miss my brother n sister alot....so weird talaga..i noe i shldnt be lyk this towards him but he is sometyms i feel so clueless wat is goin on even wat is goin on lyk he is doesnt care talaga. are guys so unfeeling even if they say they really do actually? gosh! am i lyk wendy in PBB? i dnt want to be! i mean i noe wat i feel for him is true but tt does nt mean my world shld go arnd this fella. is he tt worth it to start wif? im sure wif my feeling but im nt sure tt sure how my life wif him in the future will be. will he really love me as he says he will be for the rest of his life talaga??i mean people do get tempt u noe even i, so wat makes him really sure tt he wnt fall for someone new lyk more prettier or smarter or worst! sexier...ya inoe im nt really tt slim im juz averge talaga lang i am happy but of cz peer pessure is hard talaga esply i hav frenz who are so sexy tt i cnt help but feel so out sometyms. not tt only i kinda worry abt my next sem. will i be able to study and tt one class i actually got a F. im still sad abt it but at least i cn do it again. this tym i will be the top!!!! i can do it! i noe i can. i must finsh my course wif flying top grades.
**did we fall in love with the idea of being in love or love our incomplentness towards one another?** not trying to sound so needy but i dnt want to lose him but it seems tt he is keeps on keeping this distance between us tt it seems tt we are having a slient war everytime. im scared as to wat will happen now. i cnt help but feel to blame myself to give my whole heart lyk this when ppl arnd me told me not to do so. yesterday and 2day he was so cold towards me. ahhhh!! he has no idea wat im goin thru at home now....i feel like im six feeet under..i guess he has change indeed..
**did we fall in love with the idea of being in love or love our incomplentness towards one another?** not trying to sound so needy but i dnt want to lose him but it seems tt he is keeps on keeping this distance between us tt it seems tt we are having a slient war everytime. im scared as to wat will happen now. i cnt help but feel to blame myself to give my whole heart lyk this when ppl arnd me told me not to do so. yesterday and 2day he was so cold towards me. ahhhh!! he has no idea wat im goin thru at home now....i feel like im six feeet under..i guess he has change indeed..
