i really cant help but feel so useless seeing my folks like this..i want to stop studying that way i can at least lessen the expenses. i think my siblings deserve to be able to finish their studys like this. i am useless as wat my mother seem to be showing to me everytime i do something stupid. i want to get out of here so badly now cz i think i cause her so much headache and pain. i am no help but pain in a butt. i hate the fact that i keep hearing her crying like this everytime. i hate hate it!!! why is life so bad? if this bad luck is upon becz of me just give it to me not them like this..i am sad with te fact that maybe lorenz might go back and i will be alone here. i want to be strong i really do but life seem to be keeping me so down like this. now, im hearing my mother saying in visaya to God. hard words..questions..i dnt really undertsand wat she is saying but i know she is asking why this is happening to us like this. Has God really left us?..she is crying again..stop plzz...i wish things are not like this. i wish i cn see them smile like before.will i be able to see you guys smile like before?...
will i be able to see you guys smile like before?...