i ask myself so many times in my life now.why do i always let myself myself feel this way..dont i deserve much better in life..have i not been good enough to evryone and to him if so why must i always end up getting all this fuck up pain! i know he loves me but is that really how you show it to me? not bothering how i am or what are the things that happen in my life now while you seem to enjoying life has to offer you! yesss who am i but just your girlfriend always waiting to hear from you in whatever way i can but you never did...u always made me hope for something when you can't handle it at all in the first place.you are the worst of the worst i should say but in my heart still im forgiving you eventhough you are not even asking for it. but no more...i have my limites and somehow it has reach the limit of what i can do.can you get it?! i love you this much so much that im really hurting myself but you...never see this at all...all you think about is for your own good.you told me once i was self pity myself when actually it was you along who does it not me..im working so hard to keep this alive but what about you...u never care and that is the truth..i cnt believe i let myself be carry away by someone like you...how could you?i have given you everything even my own heart but it seems its not enough for you.silly i know for still waiting like this to you because i really do love you this much but i fear the more i keep on doing this the more i will be so hurt..do you get it? was i ever part of your plan in life? was i ever love by you?...