i really hate this feeling i have right this moment this feeling of betray by someone who i care so much and love so much...i didnt want to believe it at first but action speaks louder than words. i just cant believe he can do something like this to me..after all we went through..yes he is going through something in his life now but FUCK! thats not a good reason to do this kind of stuff to me here...it is showing just how childlish he is handling this whole thing in his life. i told him that i think the girl likes him if she does what will she do? he just said he will know what to do but as i see it the asshole is just loving the attention soo much that he never even though of how i am. since he can go online for her but when it comes to me he has no money...wat the FUCK! does it say alot what is he doing now?....im so disappointed by what he is doing now...i dnt deserve this shit from him....he made me believe that this could work out despite the distance but this shit happening...gosh! im not stopping him to enjoy but please have some respect to me man....i hate him so much...that its breaking my heart like crazy.....he has no heart....the dickhead is so selfish...you know what if that slut wants him go ahead! this is his choice not mine...i dnt hold him...i just feel so hurt...i trust him..but this...im so hurt by all of this... how could you still smile when you are actually hurting someone who has never stop believing till now....
