yesterday, my sister and i went and finally meet up with my so called "stacker". well, it was a very long story now i think i just misjudge the fella a little too much. anyways, it turn out that he is ok and not that scary after all. my sister thought so too. but when he ask me if i can be his gf. i told him, "i'm not ready yet.." he asked why. i dont wish to say the whole story but to make it short i just said, " i still love my ex very much.."my sister hit my head but i just laugh. he said "he was a fool to let u go.." i just smile. His name is John by the way. He is around the same as me. i didnt really ask him much. But after meeting, we hit it off. he is like my best friend, marwin =) gosh! i miss him!! he is in China now for his army training..=( but he said he might visit me here but the only trouble is what if im the one who visit him there in SG instead. well, he still doesnt know that i will be back but i plan to surprise him hehe. im so looking forward to it. anyway, back to what happen. he treated me and my sister for pizza yummy! too bad rv didnt come with us. he was so sweet talaga. he wanted to watch a movie but the movie that i want to watch is not on yet "a very special love" with my john lloyd and sarah!!! i cant wait to watch it. hehehe when i told him that he said i look cute. i just blush away *_* You know he is not bad looking pero i dont know im not interested. i want to know him more as my friend. I told him that and he understand. well, i hope he did. he did said before that when he 1st saw me he has already fallen in love daw? i dont know it sounds so cheezy to me so i just listen and not totally believe. we just went around the mall and we went to Mcdo for some snacks and then i told him we have to go home na. I had fun. he was not as bad as what i though he was. im glad i have a new fren now.
i guess this is a new start of my new life. i dont want to bother about him na since he said im such that kind of a person....i just never thought he would think im like that...i thought he knew me well enough to actually think that way towards him. i never thought of him like that. all im thinking is what i can do to help him..is it wrong??for me to think this way...he said i was afraid of losing him but i have lost him...im trying to get him back but he just wont let me anymore...i guess thats it na talaga........since you dont want me...since you dont love me na....okie.....i understand na.........i really will miss my baby bunny alot....but i know u dont anymore...so ya...i guess thats that na....i miss you.....