yesterday will be the last time i will ever contact him. i have blocked him in my YM list and i wanted to delete him in both my friendster and face book list but i just cant...i really feel so sad...but he never see this...how it will hurt me even more but i know i have to do this...i will be over him..i know not now but i know soon i hope....its not easy to forget esply since you gave everything just to make it work but when it comes to him he just gave it up without trying at all thats what even hurts alot...i want to scream so much. i feel my heart is screaming from all the pain and my head is hurting so much but does he know this? no....all i ever did was just love him with all of my heart and my whole self but why cant he see that all that.....i gave up so much for him but he didnt see it and now he is saying all this saying that "i will find someone better.." YES! i will find someone better but....i wanted him...but he does not see this...it hurts so much...
Lorenz, i will forget you all my love for you that you just throw away you just drop without giving it another try only to what hurt me like this...why? what have i ever done to you? all i gave was love, care and faith in you....you let me down so much you didnt even try at all....was i not worth another try?...i fight for it to work out again but what did you do? i tried so many ways to make it work but what about you? did you do anything for this to work out at all?...and now you are saying all this like as if you did everything to make it work when in reality you didnt do anything at all...did you even see my worth at all?...you hurt me so much...for that i will forever hate you.....you never kept your promise....you never....