yup today was suppose to be our 2nd year but its gone now.....its sad really ended how everything ended just like that. he didn't do anything to save it and he......ahhhh....its useless now. whats done is done and it cant never be back...it was lost...it hurts but life has to go on. i know it will take lots of time just like what ate gail ( SFC ate) told me it will take time to forget but i will soon. I must take care of my heart from now on. she told me i have really tried everything to make it work out but he just.....he made his choice....he moved on and i will be too..i know its hard espcially since he was my first love but i will not give up it does not mean its the end of the world. someday i will be happy again someday someone is gonna love me the way i wanted you to want me....i know he is part of my past now. i hate him but i now in my heart i cant forever be mad at him. i know one day he will find someone else or maybe he has found someone now who knows but if he does i have nothing else to do its his life and im no longer part of it. i will cry for sure but not for long this tears of mine will ran dry soon. i know it will be. God is good. I know he is always hugging me espcially during my weak moments in life.. im happy even if the pain is still fresh but it will heal as for him. I pray he is ok and for his family. i will miss him but i will forget him.....i want to...those memories just thinking about them even if they are beautiful memories it also carrys painful truths in them....i wish it was not like this but it did. i was just watching a video in "YOutube" just awhile ago and i came across one of my fav movies of John Lloyd and Bea Alonzo " one more chance" i really love that movie.
I remember i thought i was like Bea but i think i was more like John. I remember crying a lot in that movie because i really felt John's pain and Bea's pain so well but at least in the movie in the end they came back together again but in reality its not like at all. thats why i wish life can be alittle bit like of what we see in the movies but sadly if this does come true we wouldnt learn anything from it. i learn alot.
i have made up my mind. i know it will be long but i will not give up. someday i will be okie and i will love again =) I know im stronger now and im not alone. it still hurts alot but i will be okie. tira tira !!!
i cant wait to see KC Concepcion 's least movie and Vic and Dolpy's new movie too =) plus you know the movie of KC Concepcion is called "For the First time" i love that song alot. it was the song that i once play for him because it says alot of what i felt for the first time when i saw him....i really love this song. i cant wait to see the movie itself too =)
tira tira!!! =D