i was so wonderful to hear from you guys my friends for many years now and even those who once i had a relationship before. i know things happen for a reason. but at least im happy it happen all that bad and good stuff because i did learn something every time. i know for my last relationship was the most hardest and painful experience...sometimes i can just forget the pain and just moved on with my life i mean whats the used now rite? there is no point into holding on something when clearly it has let me go....hay..gosh! i don't want to think about it anymore. i know it will heal and maybe in HIS time i will mean the true right one for me. I just have to wait and just do what im doing now. For myself and my family for my future. i still want to have my own family like my family. together and happy even if we dont have much as long as we have our strong faith in our God i know nothing is impossible. it was so nice to see Marwin even though through msn lang but at least i was able to see his face and he saw me and joy too. gosh! he changed! hehehe he said that same thing to me. he said i still loook the same but more adoroble...i reacted on it! i mean come on that meant i look like a kid eh! so i dont him and as always he laughed! hehehe marwin has not changed too. he said i looked so beautiful now and "poor him" was what he said. i just smile. thanks best! marwin knew i broke up with my ex but i didnt really tell him the whole story because i thought maybe u dont have to repeatly say it over and over again so i just told him. he made up his mind thats all. marwin will be telling that i shouldnt bother about him anymore. he is not worth my tears. but i just said. he was worth it....then he said i was still the same gentle jovi that he knew before. i just smiled. i know marwin is just worry for me because he knew me well enough like my family. My friends like abert and roanne said the samething too. they didnt really know the whole story but they were surprise when they heard it happened. they called and each of them heard my voiced..they got worried of cuz esply roanne.she told me i shouldnt worry so much i will find someone better. ya maybe i will but it was such a pity it ended without even trying to work it out again. i thought it was worth it but i guess not. it was so funny when marwin saw joy though. he said joy looked fat! hahaha joy got angry but she knew marwin was just joking with her lolx they look so cute. it was like old times. then marwin's family slowly started showing up in the webcam heheehe they were saying joy looked much better before lolx...it was so funny talaga.. =) marwin just got back from his NS training in Taiwan. so i asked him if he got me anything he just said he bought snacks only lolx. that guy will really go fat well maybe after his training haha. i really missed a lot =) then when i told him that we will be joining my dad in China soon because he promised me that after his training he will visit me daw here so i told him we wnt stay here because my dad is already there and we are just waiting for a place to stay at over there. so when i told him that he said he will visit me in China na lang daw and he is sure na daw dis time round because on Oct his training will be over so he has a break that means he can go out of the country =) i cant wait yahoo! you know he actually promised me he will sing a song for my birthday but i just have no idea where he will put it. i told youtube. he just said " you will just see.." what?! but okie i will just wait for it. then my ex bf before in sg,Kelvin. i heard he and his gf are 4 yrs now. im so happy for him really. he was telling me that his gf's family doesnt really him but i told dnt worry. they will see your worth someday just keep on working on it and start saving for his wedding. yupz! he will get hitch very soon =) i asked a qn that time when he saw me for the first time what did he think of me. he said "beautiful.." i blush. its a good thing he couldnt see me that time we chatted. i cant believe he still remeber me. i mean he even remember 8 years ago. i told him i was sorry for what happen that time. he said its okie. he said he is happy at least he has me as his friend still. i was really glad too =)
i know things between me and L will not be the same anymore or maybe become friends but im still praying for his family and all his petitions for his life. i know he will be alright and all what is he is going through will be over. he will be okie because God is working on him now. i know i have no right to worry or maybe care for him...but..never mind...its no use bringing up something which will only bring tears....