i was talking to one of my ex's close friend yesterday and i found out a lot more stuff about L....i guess he really still love his ex ( his first love) even when we were together that time...i felt so used and fooled by him and her...i will never forget how that ex of his just told me that "i know him so i think you should just give up....." upon hearing that my heart just went from being okie to breaking even deeper...why would she say such things to me and to make it worse she actually told me what if i found out that they are BACK together again what would i do? come on! how could you ask your ex's ex such question.....i was so speechless for a min or two but i give her my answer...i told her what else can i do its his choice not mine but i know i will be very sad and i will cry...
then his friend just told me that he really has changed a lot since he met that gf of him before...why would he still choose someone who has cheated on him so many times and now has a kid now over me? when i didnt even cheat on him ever! i really loved him truly and faithfully.....why cnt he see me?!!! why cnt he just see my worth?! why?why?Why?!!!!!!! is this all i get for loving you with all my heart with all of me?... why would you do this to me?!....