its funny whenever I'm online i always end up wishing he would pop by and say "i miss you"...before it was so hard to use a computer in this place i would always end up waiting for my mom to be to able to go online because of the dangerous paths we have to take when it reaches night time here...but its gone now...i know i should just forget even thinking that we could still have another chance......i have cried so many times before because its what i can only do...i hated everything and everyone even God....i hated the fact that i gave all of myself but only to break me up into pieces like this...it was unfair...it was so unfair...it was the first time i really gave my whole heart to someone but i was broken up by the same someone....thorns i had...i was like a rose so special but once you touch it you will bleed...people might want them but many are afraid by the thorns it goes around its body...now i wonder would there be anyone who will want a rose with thorns like me or will i forever be in the freezer for display......
i want to tell him so many times i miss him so much but I'm afraid...I'm scared that someone who might own his heart now will get mad...i want so much to tell him i still love him so....but who would want a thorn rose like me.........