today is my younger brother's birthday and i was not able to get him anything...so i just prayed for him when i work up early this morning a special prayer for his birthday. then a few minutes later, the laundry boy came with our newly washed cloths, then when this guy happen to drop his cellphone my mom, being a very generous person, suddenly said "do you want another cellphone?.." hearing this something in my gut was telling me this is BAD NEWS..as it turn out to be it was a bad news..she gave away my FIRST cellphone the only phone that i was dreaming of ever since i saw in one of my favorite movie " NOW THAT I HAVE YOU". it was so heart breaking but its gone now..she did asked me if i want to give it but my mom should at least know how I'm such a sentimental type of person that even my FIRST book i never throw more or less my FIRST cellphone...its like so senseless of her to actually think i want it to happen but i know if i speak back at her she will just end up being mad at me and then the rest of the day will be ohh so fuck up again....i dont want that to happen so right now im just writing it down all this feelings of mine hoping it will be gone at least. its hard to let that thing that became part of my life but sometimes we just need to let go of something that way new things will come by. i learn that in my life so far...You lose some and you win some but losing them does not mean that they are forever lost their memories will always be in my heart. i will really miss my cellphone my baby and my friend.. its actually talking about my cellphone like this but like i said i am a very sentimetal person. For me, people or things as long as it becomes part of my life i just grew so attach to it...maybe thats why it hurts sometimes...not many undertsand this...... do you undertsand it? gosh! being emo is so emo...