I cant seem to forget you esply now...
its been such a weird time yet again for me..i dont know...but i do know one thing though...i simply miss him greatly even though i know he does not...yeah! i wonder why is it i cant forget him so easily like what he did...is this when they say you were really in love truly?...i honestly thought why i cant forget him becuz of what happen between us but no it was not really afterall...its actually what have bulid up...i didnt know i was that in love with him..i mean before i did fell in love but this is so different really...i cant shake him off even if i try too...there have been many guys here who seems to like me too i like them too but...i dont know...all i know is that my heart does not beat for them but for the one who hurt me so much but yet love so much too...have i gone crazy? to actually believe that there is really a "happy ending" to everything or my fantasies in life have gone so wild now?...i cant forget him...why? how did he do it so well?..living and staying in this place just dont do much for me because every where i go i will see him...GOSH! im like a crazy lady here...! everysong i hear...i wanted to cry but i simpply cant anymore maybe i have used up all my tears that my "tear bag" has been used up by one fella and you are only allowed to have one of those therefore, i have used up mine already =(
Thnak God i still have my prayers with me. I know God loves me so much thats why i have to go through this....its just so hard because i truly gave my all, my all heart and mind......i never did that before thats why its all so new and so painful..for the first time i truly love someone but sadly, quickly that someone forgets...i know he is very happy now with maybe someone new..im glad though i know im still hurting inside but we all deserve to be happy too so i guess he much prefer someone who is there for him. what i was to him maybe was really nothing to him all that i have show with all of my heart maybe was not what he wanted.....i wish him well....
