so many things had happen this year. some were so painful to say while others, words are just not enough to say it. I have been blessed with so many things even the painful ones i take them as one of my blessing as well. Life has so many colours which i thought at first was just a story i always end up reading but in reality life is much more than that indeed. i hate and love it to be honest. i hate the fact that things that seems so great can actually be so hurtful actually. then things which i thought will never come true in my wildest dream is going to happen. I always thought that there are only three things in life that matter the most. these are family, career and love. though all of these do matter i missed out something too. its self achievement. we need to feel that we are secure with our own self before achieving the rest of our lives. i thought i have reach that level but actually i don't yet...i still am and I'm glad at what i see about my life now. I'm not like before i can see that thought there is still some part of me misses something i know in time i will meet the one person who will really love me for me and could love me more than i can. I have to let time be time. i feel so grown up now well I'm not sure if i am really but i pray i would completely be change into someone who i am not really. i guess that things that happen made me realize that i can never please anyone and that no matter how much i give myself to the one i love with all my heart but when that person simply never really sees me and my worth all this while then it will not go anywhere indeed. i cried so much. it was the first time in my life. i have learn never to be like that again.
i guess i will end here for today. New Year is coming so near and there are so many things to do. New year, new heart and a new life. i saw these quote and i like it so much..
"Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome."
see you next year! mwahh!